Lacrimarum Valle

  6/27/23 Regarding The Will as it Exists on Various Levels of Scale Preventing The Will from Standing in Its Own Way Doing as Means to What Thou Wilt   If the rule that you followed brought you here, of what use was the rule?      This question applies in a broad sense; the rule being what your core driving motivation is, but lately I’ve been applying it on a smaller scale.  As above so below and all that.  It’s a useful introspective tool.  I use this to check myself.  I find it a useful thing to remind myself of when I am trying to assess my behavioral patterns, especially with regards to aspects of myself I want to change.        We all follow rules to guide us to our end.  In a literal sense: morals and guiding principals and things of that nature.  Sure we may violate our own rules and morals but the decision to do that is itself calculated on some level by a different set of rules.  Our actions ...

  If it takes some dumb schizo shit to motivate me to care about this life i guess that's better than nothing. It's pretty funny tho.

Divine Fire and The Game 6/23/23 When I stoke my internal furnace hot and bright enough, i channel divine fire through me.    For a while I coulld only catch brief glimpses of the divine fire.  First years apart, then months, and that alone would correct my course or drive me when it happened.  But over time the skill develops.  I make kit, as a vessel, a more conducive environment for these sparks to catch and for the flame to grow.  Now I can channel it longer, and in greater force.  It becomes easier to fully channel something from without, to make a vessel for a will/force higher than itself.  This vessel can be possessed, and with time it  is able to contain hotter fire, and for longer.  the entity that is kit is aware of the other-ness of that which is being channeled.  It knows it is interacting with forces and agents above its own perception, and although it cannot comprehend that which fills it, if it is able to cleverly li...